Life's Daily Doses

Standing Tall.. in my morning space.

I sometimes, more often than I care to admit, forget to stand tall in my daily life. I allow the throws of life to beat me down and wore me out. The negative space seems to suck me in like a vacuum and I find that I shrink and turn myself off. I allow the worry and the questions of correct parenting consume me, and it feels like I am not moving. I am not learning anything new and I am not growing as an individual. My corner of the world has been patchy for several years, but this new season needs to move on. I want it over with. So, as I sit and occupy this part of who I am it makes me wonder how long have I been off?

I feel as if I am NOT occupying me and what I want to do. But when I really think about it.. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know what makes me really "ON" any more. I start with something thinking it to be the ideal option and that it will feed me, but shortly realize that either it is and not enough or it isn't at ALL.  I do know walking in this space below always grounds me and gives me perspective. My morning space has always been reliable for JUST THIS.

 

standing tall..  
finding treasures..  (another post will follow this one)

finding a bit of joy.. and smiling about it. Love the sound of seagulls and hearing the waves crashing.

Just the calmness..  

Take Inventory ..

While Christmas window shopping yesterday I drove for awhile and while I drove I listened to this. I found it so profoundly soft to my ears and it gave me "joy"..  a nice little adjustment.

Part 1 & 2

I love what he said about not having room for negative thoughts. To pay attention and fill your mind with the right thoughts and there will won't be any room for the negative thoughts. 

Sorry Fear ...  No vacancy - no room you are gonna have to go somewhere else and stay!

Your never sell your house have you seen the market..  No vacancy  God's Favor surrounds me like a shield

You will never get well have you seen the medical report..  No Vacancy God is restoring health into me.

Well you've seen your best days..  No vacancy this hotel, this mind is filled with thoughts of faith, hope, victory, increase, abundance,restoration.  There is NO room for doubt, unbelief, anxiety, fear, depression.

 Take inventory.. Of who's staying in your house. Who's occupying your rooms? If you give fear a room -- Faith get's left outside. There is not room for BOTH. If you give I can't a room than I can is left outside. If you give lack I will barely make it a room then increase, promotion and abundance are left at the door.

Get rid of the wrong thoughts and let what God says about you have a permanant home. 

So much time is spent in our headspace..  and I believe we do create our outside life with what comes from our thinking. Too much time spent on the negative only reeps the negative. 

Enjoy the sermon..  I am not a religious person (but Joel makes things digestable)

 

"Like sands through the hourglass, so are the days of our lives."

I have been away..  so I feel it necessary to update all of the happenings around here.

We ended the summer with a bang. I decided to stop being a lamo mom and get on the ball and DO something other than sit and watch kids on the computer..  So I booked a trip to Busch Gardens and SeaWorld. What a trip it ended up being..  We had SO much fun and I believe I have converted both little one's into ROLLER Coaster fans..  

Cheetah Hunt is a MUST!

100 degree weather makes for a nice sunburn.

Our last day we ended it with a little relaxation by the pool.

and some ice cream funnies....

 

May Today and Every Day

Many thoughts are going on inside my head at this moment.

May seems to be offering me the opportunity for shedding,

 closings of the familiar, and the ability for a lighter load to carry. 

This could be a time where the shedding is over and joy and laughter can re-enter.

 

I have wanted for so long to trust in this process

and to fully believing I am exactly where I am meant to be..

Life can be delicate at times and a little bit intricate and I am working 

on respecting this truth.

Hasn't been an easy faith filled process, but rather me facing the uncertain and unknown. 

I am asking anyone that graces my blog to keep your fingers crossed

for a current miracle in the works.

I ask for faith and promise that everything entailed 

moves in a fluid forward motion. 

Just as it should..  

"May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where

you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are

born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have

received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be

content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into

your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.

It is there for each and every one of us."

~ Saint Theresa~

 

 

 

It has been awhile..

As I sit here trying to collect all that has happened, is happening, and will happen makes me  feel somewhat overwhelmed. Events, moments, situations have happened and I find myself retreating with in myself..  not sharing. Just being quiet and holding or savoring.

Highlights so far...  

 

Cheyenne's Senior Prom - She is beautiful and she takes my breath away. When I see how grown up she looks (as is) it just makes me wonder where the hell did all that time go?

I am just glad Prom is over and everyone is safe...  and I can put away my worry wart mothering skills. 

After prom sickness..  East meets West. Got a little bit of Chinese herbs along with some mood stabilizers..  with a bit of antibiotics. Yes, it has been a long ride and a battle with lots of unresolved questions. We have embarked upon a new path.. the path of antidepressants. A path that I didn't just jump onto lightly for her..  a path that needed to be walked upon before judging..  and so far the our verdict is still in the woods. Just trying to continue to lift the hazy fog that blocks her fullest potential. 

Kitty is growing..  and becoming a rather presine part of our family. One just has to love her she is so sweet and cute.

 

Morning grounding.. well it helps fill in the gaps along the way. Even if it's only for 20 minutes. Amazingly it helps. Makes me realize that I am small..  and what I feel is huge in my life .. is well 

Small..  and this too shall pass.

 

Other than the above there is FCAT testing stressing out the little ones..  and Ms. Ayla Rae will be 9 on Friday!

 

 

 

Sometimes.. Old School Is Better

Yesterday marked the final day of "Spring Break." Though I love to have order and routine in my life I have to admit it was hard to give up this break. Since the time change I have NOT been able to wake up very early, and well I guess just not having anything on our plate was nice. So after swimming and sun bathing  yesterday it was time to vamp up the fun.

I decided to get out something that I have had for almost a year.

The old school Slip and Slide.. 

Even though it didn't slip and slide like they had imagined it would

they still had a blast. 

Farewell Spring Break 2011...  thanks for entertaining us and gracing us with lovely weather.

Yellow pedals ~ Blue Skies ~ Watered Hems

Today I sought out my favorite yellow tree.

This tree is in my eyesight every day. I also stop the urge to

photograph it out of fear of looking silly.

Well today I gave myself permission to look silly, quirky, and just well "whatever"...  

End result..  

I got a picture of my favorite tree.

and the energy I feel from this tree makes me giddy with excitement.

I feel like it is playing peek-a-boo.

After sitting here for about 20 minutes.. 

I then ventured to the beach.

Feeling I needed to just "go"

and be in the elements that make me happy.

Good Morning... Thank you for coming. 

Walk upon me and feel me beneath your feet..  

I am cold but soft, and I welcome you.

Good MORNING!

 

Mornings At The Beach

Mornings at the beach provide me so much. Being near the waves and seeing the massive amount of water puts me into perspective. It  allows me to understand that I and all that comes with my package is relatively much smaller than what I was originally believing to be my truth. The fresh air grounds my spastic thought process and calms my inner voice.. which welcomes silence and clarity for a brief moment and it feels incredibly sweet. Even for the slightest minute I welcome this. 

The salt air and the warm sun melt my worries and lately I feel as if I have lots. My energy has waxed and waned...  and I need my worries to melt away. I need to know that when I connect to my surroundings and plant my feet upon this sand that everything happens for a reason and I will be perfectly fine. 

This season shall pass..  and I need to find it within me to remember what grounds me. Outside space and nature, salt air and waves, seagulls, and sand...  ARE my joy and my grounding. 

Mornings at the beach... well they need to keep coming!

Cup of Coffee with a side of Ocean

Today was chilly and a bit warm all in the same.

Today is delightful

Today is joyful and relaxing

Today I am doing it anyway

I struggle with allowing

I struggle with just being

I am a good excuse maker as to why I can't

but Today I am doing it anyway... 

and will return later with the girls because

I CAN

AND

THERE IS NO REASON NOT TO

Just "DO"ing it Anyway.. and liking it so far

I took Melanie's advice and stepped out into nature and boy was she right. Something about nature just grounds me. I feel the energy from the deepest part of my soul going downward through my legs and out my feet and into the earth. The air, the sun, the breeze, the waves, the sand, the birds..  all became a part of me. 

There are times when we feel our goals and ideas are so far out of reach...

We feel as if we can't muster up the energy to lift one foot in front of the other.

Let alone reach the top and complete the daily stuff, and not forgetting

the BIGGER dreams we hold near and dear to our hearts.

Pick up your feet and..  

anyway..  I think you will like the end results.

There are days that we feel guarded and vulnerable..  and we have yellow caution tape surrounding our hearts. The thought of letting anyone in to see us as we are is too painful to bear witness to. 

Let go of the fear  and all that crap surrounding the unknown and ...

anyway..  I know it is scary, but love should never be feared.

Love should marinate our lives and only make us 

more tender and juicy.. 

It should make all the hardened parts soften

and make our hearts expand....

Sure felt nice to be in nature..

 I step out and stopped making excuses 

as to why I couldn't spend 30 minutes today in this glory.

I truly enjoyed my morning.

TRULY