Have you ever felt like your life is a perpetual cycle of the same thing over and over again. A slight variation, but mostly the same thing day after day. Lately, I feel like Bill Murrey in Groundhogs Day. EVERY thing in my life is scripted and today doesn't look different than tomorrow or Friday. I can predict just how it goes which is me in and out of my car driving kids all over the place. I am back and forth and back and forth .. I feel so overstimulated by the outside world and by the same roads in which I travel upon. Redundant... overplayed... routined and well boring. There seems to be NO room for anything remotely fun or exciting. I try to make sure that I admire the birds, clouds, and sun. But mostly I am white knuckled and I have a tension in my lower back, hip, and knee's. I want to scream and just jump out of my skin.
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